Revelation, one of the greatest treasures sometimes easy to find and sometimes buried so deep.. to be dug up may cause hurt along the way but never any the Lord cannot heal. It is after all, all about the revelation of His love, because He is love. When can someone know the depths of this “His love is better than life”, it would take some life experiences where you draw so close to Him and realize that this life is not better than His love and presence. All goodness lies in Him.
Some time ago, the spirit of the Lord told me to put up a painting of Him walking on water in my child’s room, I did so this past Christmas, (while my spouse was away on a trip), trusting that as surely as he has spoken, he will fulfill whatever purpose he has spoken for. Recently, one morning as I woke up, I had a flash vision of that image, and I heard The Lord say “get your feet back on the water..” that morning, I went to church, it was not easy to even leave the driveway without persecution..
When I came back the painting was gone, a little while later the entire room was trashed, bibles flying all over, clothes scattered around, broken glass from frames thrown covered the floors, other belongings tossed and broken.. Persecution released in the form of an uncontrollable rage of anger.. not just in actions but also defiling words. In the midst of it all, I find my Fathers hands so mighty to hold me up on His hill. “If you are going to make Jesus a pain, I will show you how I will get rid of Him” was the last text msg I received amongst many others before coming home. That painting lasted on the wall 7 months. I looked at him and responded, “you cannot throw away Jesus by throwing away a piece of wood..”
After all was said and done, my spouse left the house.. when he came back during the night as my child lay down to sleep, he asked for his dad and when he came into the child’s room.. The child said “Dad, I forgive you for throwing away my things..is your foot ok from stepping on the broken glass?”
wow…
I was not in the room but I asked my child what was said and when I heard this.. I realized again, what it is to be child-like. The Word of God says, all your children shall be taught by The Lord and great shall be the peace of your children.
A lot of times when we are faced with a situation as adults, we can be quick to think or say “God when are you going to show this person what they did to me?.. ” or sometimes we’ll even feel like someone needs to be taught a lesson.. but this is not the way of the Lord we serve. He is long-suffering, He is not one of condemnation but one who sets us free from the roots of darkness and brings us into His light separating our doings far as east from west, erased, forgotten, He calls us holy and beloved. Is that not His heart for the lost as well? I did not pray Lord open His eyes to see what he does! I prayed Lord open His eyes to see you, drown Him in your love, give him a sound mind, peace over him.
And I learned not to say “I am going thru a lot but to say it as it is.. the enemy is going thru a lot .. trying to shake me, but I stand on unshakeable ground” it takes a lot of faith and strength that come from the flow of His spirit which we draw when we sit in His presence. Releasing truth into a setting of lies always shifts the atmosphere.
I was not always this way, I use to fight back, I learned to let go and get out of God’s way. It took many trials and suffering for the Lord to put this perspective and sight in me. This character has been refined thru fire which He has walked with me thru. In my brokenness, He has sealed me with gold, indeed, grace is a supernatural phenomenon. In midst any battle, when we stand up to fight, it’s like saying “step aside Lord, I got this”.. Jesus does not need us to defend Him, He is God.
There was a time when the Lord asked me why do you pray for your spouses salvation? Is it for your life to get better or do you care for his soul? At that time I realized how immaturely i had been praying and how serious it really is.
Four days later, I sat in the same room and saw the Lord before me (He is so beautiful and glorious! so tender, so perfect, true companion)..He said “As are the tall strands of grass in a field, not one is lifted or wilted without my permission, is as I am commander over your life. As surely as the rivers flow without end are my waters over you. As surely as I died and rose again, I will raise all things that seem dead, up in your life..”
That night before going to bed I said “Jesus you are here.. literally! here! why won’t you touch my husband, what do you wait for?” He responded ” a ripe heart…”
My hope is in the Lord.. to hope in man is self-destruction, to hope in the Lord is self-renewal. I know a great word the Lord has spoken over my life is coming to pass, He has promised me that I and my household shall serve Him. He has given me dreams in the night and visions in the day.. He has stirred and captivated my heart.. In Him, I will trust for the change my soul awaits, to His word I hold Him.. and His word will return accomplishing His great purpose and will.